When you’re dealing with the formidable foes of long distance and bad timing, sometimes love isn’t enough. I learned this painful lesson for a second time during my passionate romance back in ‘02 with Southern Illinois sweetheart Steve.
Four months after embarking on our whirlwind relationship, I found myself at a crossroads both personally and professionally. An amazing trip to Australia had me hungering to go back and live Down Under for awhile. I knew it was an opportunity I couldn’t pass up — and that it was a leap I had to take by myself. I now Open The Vault and take you back to the spring of 2002…
New York, NY
April 8, 2002
I’m feeling really sad. I keep thinking about how incredibly loving and good Steve has been to me…and it just tears me up to think about hurting him.
Over the last couple of days during his visit, there were so may sublime moments — playing piano together, singing some of our favorite songs while curled up by candlelight, kissing at the Empire State Building.
I feel more connected to Steve than I have to any man in a long time. And I will miss him terribly if I have to walk away.
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April 23, 2002
I’ve taken two big steps since you last heard from me — I’ve decided to go back to Australia and I broke up with Steve.
The latter happened earlier tonight, in a brief conversation that had me fumbling for words and Steve very gracious and mature.
“I knew I’d hear those words from you sooner or later,” he said, after I told him our lives our heading in different directions.
As I struggled to explain my decision, Steve brought our final exchange to an end.
“Well, I guess that’s all I needed to hear. Have a good trip.”
I’m going to miss Steve. And I will never, ever regret a single second I’ve spent in the warmth of his arms and light of his love. Steve has shown me that throwing caution to the wind doesn’t have to be a bad thing, that the most exhilarating romances are the most unexpected ones. I love him and feel profoundly grateful he came into my life.
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Little did I know when I broke up with Steve that Cupid wasn’t quite finished with the two of us. In the meantime, I turned my attention to Australia — where romance unexpectedly found me once again.